What to Do? [NO SPAM]

[Aero]

Yeah. Well, as an update on everything. I went a week without talkin 8/10 - 8/18 to her, I intended on never talkin to her again. But then she randomly texted me asking me how I was. I txtd back sayin i was ok, asked her how she was. Then she said she was sorry about all the things she said.

That kinda took a lot of my anger away. I forgave her. So we tried to continue to be friends and be cool, but my emotions came back. I wasn't ready to talk to her because hearing her reminded me why I cared about her so much.

After that I took a lot of time to just think about myself. Think about God, my family, what I want from life, and even her. I wanted to think about the entire situation, dissect everything.

To help concentrate, I stopped smoking, drinking, socializing, and even eating for 10 days (until my body was just beginning to feel frail). It was a hard procedure, but it refined my mind. I was able to understand things much more clearly.

I realized that I can't get over her, because my feelings will be with me, and because I do feel like that what we have is unfinished. But I came to the conclusion that I can move on. And I am.

So yesterday I txtd her. I wanted to talk to her over the phone. She kept running around the bush until she gave me a no. I still sent her an email. It basically was just telling her that our relationship feel apart basically to lack of time together (like going out, spending time together in general). Told her that I still care about her and that if she ever needed me I'd be there for her, not here for her, but there for her.

Then I put bye and thats it.



I'm not gonna call her, write her, or txt her anymore. I'm not gonna bug her. If she wants to talk to me I'll talk to her, as a friend. Cant hope for anything more. The end.