The Like/Hate Thread

[Milk Bubble]

In the wise words of Katt Williams: "That's why it's called SELF esteem. It's the esteem of your motherfucking self."

Let other people determine your self worth and you may as well be throwing a dice, since it depends on whether those people are nice, assholes, stupid or intelligent - trust me, I've done the research.

My self esteem is non-existant.

For awhile, I didn't let other people control my self worth. I was okay with not ever getting complimented, or people giving a shit about me. But after awhile, one can only take so much. And all I ever tell people who say they care about me is that I just need a self esteem boost, but I guess they aren't willing to do that.

Everyone I know in real life doesn't seem like they really care about me, even my own parents. Often times I just get ignored by everyone, and then I don't do anything and run away and hide and cry. Then I come back and act like nothing happened. I don't know why, but I'm not good at just telling people "Hey, so I was just off crying in the bathroom, and I feel really shitty right now". I just can't do it for some reason, so everyone just assumes I'm fine.

Anyways, I don't know where I'm going with this rant, but I guess... Don't assume that I'm fine and happy all the time, because I'm not. It's all an act because I'm afraid of confrontation. I don't like making a scene. I cry at least once a day and no one even knows about it.