03-31-2011, 01:10 PM
Milk Bubble Wrote:My self esteem is non-existant.
For awhile, I didn't let other people control my self worth. I was okay with not ever getting complimented, or people giving a shit about me. But after awhile, one can only take so much. And all I ever tell people who say they care about me is that I just need a self esteem boost, but I guess they aren't willing to do that.
Everyone I know in real life doesn't seem like they really care about me, even my own parents. Often times I just get ignored by everyone, and then I don't do anything and run away and hide and cry. Then I come back and act like nothing happened. I don't know why, but I'm not good at just telling people "Hey, so I was just off crying in the bathroom, and I feel really shitty right now". I just can't do it for some reason, so everyone just assumes I'm fine.
Anyways, I don't know where I'm going with this rant, but I guess... Don't assume that I'm fine and happy all the time, because I'm not. It's all an act because I'm afraid of confrontation. I don't like making a scene. I cry at least once a day and no one even knows about it.
You should consider seeing a therapist or a counselor. They really do help. Most areas have some that work pro bono or at least free support groups, you just need to do a little digging.
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If life gives you lemons, hand them to me!
I've got a great recipe for lemon meringue pie.