Hate: My anxiety disorder is flaring up lately. The known cause aside I can't get into see my MD until the 27th. I'm stuck using the dwindling Legion of Mental Control I have. I'm keeping the ever awakening metaphorical emotional heart of the human spirit from going into full reactor mode and driving me mad.
When Christina broke me my heart turned to granite and shut off completely. I met a girl whose cracking the defenses which is causing my emotions and actions to be filtered through it. That in and of itself is scaring me and thus resulting in panic attacks. I'm striking down those feelings because I value her friendship more than I value throwing it off a cliff if she doesn't feel the same. Which is also killing me slowly. I feel like a battered army that I'm trying to tactically keep alive, but morale is sinking fast and they're nearing exhaustion. However, I'll never give in. I'll fight to keep my sanity to my last dying breath.
It helps to post that. Omg
When Christina broke me my heart turned to granite and shut off completely. I met a girl whose cracking the defenses which is causing my emotions and actions to be filtered through it. That in and of itself is scaring me and thus resulting in panic attacks. I'm striking down those feelings because I value her friendship more than I value throwing it off a cliff if she doesn't feel the same. Which is also killing me slowly. I feel like a battered army that I'm trying to tactically keep alive, but morale is sinking fast and they're nearing exhaustion. However, I'll never give in. I'll fight to keep my sanity to my last dying breath.
It helps to post that. Omg
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