10-14-2005, 02:46 AM
ok.
I would like to thank everyone that actually spent the time to answer honestly. I appriciate it.
Explanation for this thread.
I've hit a VERY low point in my life. It's actually brought me into a clinical depression that's messing with my life. I barely talk to my wife anymore, I haven't spoken to my parents in 3 years, my grandfather's kidney's just failed(5th time) and he had less than 3 months(or so they say >.<).
I don't know. I don't really want to spill my life out or anything, I'm not looking for pity, in all honesty, I was searching for a reason to live. NO, I'm not taking this thread as the reason, I just wanted to confirm a few things, which I did.
I hated asking about question #5. I already knew the answer to that one. I'm a constant bother and I know it. The problem is that I've always had this need to have things happen quickly and i've brought it to this RPG and for that, I'm sorry.
As for Question #2. Yeah. I would like to be staff. I've addressed my problem with having a "lower ranking" than others...it's a military trait that I've unfortunatily aquired. I'm trying to break it, but it's difficult to break a habit of three years....
As for me quiting...I've thought about it and thought about it some more. I don't want to. I love writing, though I'm not the best, it's still fun. It's nice to become someone else and leave the realm of reality.
ok...to sum it all up.
I hearby swear that I will not beg, will not harass and will not OVERLY question the staff on any matters that pertain to the rpg, unless absolutely necessary. I hope staff can forgive me and we can move on with our RP'ing lives.
I would like to thank everyone that actually spent the time to answer honestly. I appriciate it.
Explanation for this thread.
I've hit a VERY low point in my life. It's actually brought me into a clinical depression that's messing with my life. I barely talk to my wife anymore, I haven't spoken to my parents in 3 years, my grandfather's kidney's just failed(5th time) and he had less than 3 months(or so they say >.<).
I don't know. I don't really want to spill my life out or anything, I'm not looking for pity, in all honesty, I was searching for a reason to live. NO, I'm not taking this thread as the reason, I just wanted to confirm a few things, which I did.
I hated asking about question #5. I already knew the answer to that one. I'm a constant bother and I know it. The problem is that I've always had this need to have things happen quickly and i've brought it to this RPG and for that, I'm sorry.
As for Question #2. Yeah. I would like to be staff. I've addressed my problem with having a "lower ranking" than others...it's a military trait that I've unfortunatily aquired. I'm trying to break it, but it's difficult to break a habit of three years....
As for me quiting...I've thought about it and thought about it some more. I don't want to. I love writing, though I'm not the best, it's still fun. It's nice to become someone else and leave the realm of reality.
ok...to sum it all up.
I hearby swear that I will not beg, will not harass and will not OVERLY question the staff on any matters that pertain to the rpg, unless absolutely necessary. I hope staff can forgive me and we can move on with our RP'ing lives.